How will it all work out?????????????

The hits just keep coming...............

At this point I don't know how it is all going to work out, but it has to doesn't it?

Have to stay positive right? How?

With so many good things in my life, how can one bad thing can just blow them all away.

What are we going to do?

How can we fix this?

Lots of things to sleep on tonight....lots of things to pray on.

Moving on....out!

I think I'm going to move out sooner or later. Living basically with a couple isn't cool. Beth is here pretty much at all times, and it is just making me feel more lonely that necessary! I found a few places online but I'm sure they will be taken up by the time I can actually get out of here. I can't just leave Justin high and dry. I'm going to talk to him after work today to see what he can do. He might be able to find a new roommate quickly and I can get out. Rent for November is coming up, so I'm not sure how it's going to work out exactly. Anyway, Gary and I spent a few hours on the phone thinking of girl names. I have a feeling it is going to be a girl, but you never know. So here is the list so far: Liv, Marit, Eileen/Aileen, Erinn, Ingrid, Rowan. Girl names are really hard to choose. In the end I would like to end up with something that isn't to feminine sounding. I am leaning towards Liv, Marit or Rowan so far. I'm sure when the baby is born we will know right away.

Oh my God, just thinking about actually birthing this baby just made my stomach drop! I am not going to lie, I'm scared out of my mind! Going to try to do this as naturally as possible. I think in the long run it is best for the baby to have no drugs in our system! Wish me luck!

Blech

Nothing good to report for today. Feeling depressed. Off to babysit now.

Walking...

Only 1.5 miles today. I was really tired. I'm just glad that I actually made it there!! Feeling good. I didn't feel like eating anything today. Nothing sounds good, so it is dinner time and I am starving now. Still--nothing sounds good! Grrrrr. Oh, well....french fries sound good, but I'm not having those!

Nothing new to note...

Nothing much new here. I can't really think of a good baby reason to blog today (or in the past few days). But on mommy & daddy happenings.....Gary's band has booked 2 shows for next spring in Europe. He is very excited and all the promotion surrounding the show is very cool.

Gary also made contact with his dad after a few years of not talking. I think this baby will be a good thing in more ways that one ;) They have a tendency to bring families together!

As far as the baby goes, everything is good. Just been tired lately. Working out in the mornings still, got up to 1.75 miles in 30 minutes. Trying to eat well, its not that easy!! I keep craving cheetos, and pizza....and all things that are salty and fatty!!

Bad night....

Didn't sleep very well last night. Watched to much Law & Order: SVU, and when Gary didn't answer his phone all night, I just knew it was b/c some one had killed him. Turns out he just konked out hard on the the sofa and didn't hear his phone the million times that I called him...or so he says...... :D

Sleeping....

I am not sleeping very well, and it makes for a looooong day. I'm going to hit the gym and see if that will help. I feel fine besides of that. Woke up today and yesterday with a mildly upset stomach. I have been ignoring my lactose intolerance and eating lots of dairy, so that is probably why. I think I'll hit the drug store and see if I can't find some of those pills that help you digest dairy. I am taking a calcium supplement and two vitamin d3's to help absorb the calcium. It's 8:30 am, and I'm not really sure what I'm going to do with myself today. I think I'm going to have banana splits with Bjorn at some point. Maybe after his nap, I'm not sure. I'll have to call Annelies. Anyway--I think I'll get out of my pajamas (seeing as how I didn't yesterday!) and find something to do with myself!